January 2011
I hate how I can barely accept a compliment. Partly because I don’t see it, partly because I’m just paranoid wary of being toyed with emotionally. I wish I could change that.
Does anybody else
know one or more of those people that can instantly get under their skin & improve/destroy whatever mood you’re in? That immediately make any dormant emotions come rushing back like a roundhouse to the face? Because I do. And I love/hate them for it.
I’m not 100% sure how I feel right now. I think I like you. I don’t like opening up to people, especially when I want them to like me & make a good impression. Like every other person I’ve got my scars, whether they’re physical or metaphorical, & I feel a little vulnerable re-opening them to open up to someone.
I swear
I always look good/feel confident when I’m not seeing anyone I know.
Why?!
I truly am my own worst enemy. I get wound up over the smallest things, then get annoyed at myself even more for getting wound up in the first place. I do dislike myself sometimes.
It is so cold, like obscenely cold.
I thought I lived in England, not the fucking Arctic.
