August 2010
Does personality & charm make up for looks?
& I don’t mean sleazy charm, that shit’s cringeworthy. I’m talking kindly charm, I know what I mean.
If it wasn't for amitriptyline.
I would have killed someone by now.
Cuddle partner wanted please.
Don’t feel well again, this film turned out crap & I can’t even remember the last time I physically slept with someone. Don’t even want sex, just warmth & affection would be nice.
I want to be
A good man.
An honest man.
A hard working man.
A handsome man.
A better father than I had.
& I will try my fucking hardest.
Sorry for the personal touch again.
You're going to get eaten alive.
& That makes me laugh.
I want.
You.
Sex.
To sleep properly, for one fucking night.
To drum, but its far too late.
A cuddle with this movie would be nice.
Oh & someone with my number to text me.
A mouth that moves but fails to speak.
& when you use those lips, they better be on me.
I had the weirdest dream last night.
& It involved all my friends & someone I follow on here.
It was so strange.
All I remember is having to go on tip-toes to make out with that someone.
I wish I could remember more, it seemed interesting hah.
I see some people on here.
aheadacheyoucantfix:
mattycrawford:
& am amazed.
I can’t help but think that when they get to University, how on Earth are they going to cope?!
This scares me :-(
It’s just frustrating. People need to bite the bullet & man up. If you’re mopey & whatever, then you & your work will suffer. Take it from me, I’ve been there. If you’re negative about...
Ok.
Think I like you.
I’m too awkward to talk to you properly, I’m afraid of pushing you away if I come on too strong.
I know I’m furthest from your type as physically possible.
Too shy to tell you how I feel sober.
Too messed up to tell you how I feel drunk.
Fantastic.
I see some people on here.
& am amazed.
I can’t help but think that when they get to University, how on Earth are they going to cope?!
Tired, hurting & achey.
But in an all-round good mood.
Got my Uni stuff sorted out & organised on my bedroom floor. I’m pretty much ready to move out again now. I just need to wait until the day before to chuck my clothes & books into my suitcase.
Counting down now.
I want warm company on this cold night.
I've been slipping from 192-196 followers
For days now. It’s quite irritating.
I want to get to 200, I like even numbers.
Plus I want an excuse to make a video soon.
Somebody talk?
Organising & tidying is a necessary evil.
Red Rover - The Scene Aesthetic
I really hope.
That the next girl to be interested in me isn’t a cunt.
Couldn’t deal with that. Again.
This might sound stupid.
But awhile ago I asked my friend (who does photography at Uni) if I could be in one of her photo shoots next term.
She said yes. She also said she would have asked me anyway. Whether or not she said it to appease me, it still made me smile.
Uni is fast approaching & my confidence has been waning lately. Thinking about it panics me, I’ve never, ever, ever, ever been centre of attention...
Does anybody know...
How or if you can get rid of bags & dark rings under the eyes?
2 years of not sleeping has wrecked my eyes.
Intelligence is sexy.
Whether it’s intellectual or creative, there’s no two ways about it.
First night out back in Southampton.
I WILL get attention, if it fucking kills me.
Going to try my hardest to take utmost care of myself & get some new clothes.
I need to boost my confidence up a few notches, especially as i’ll be meeting new people again.
Right.
So. Like.
I ain’t fucking ever gonna be the tall, skinny guy with chiselled good looks that 99% of girls seem to pine after.
But fuck it. I’m slowly making my peace with that.
Perhaps I can get by with a crooked smile, honest eyes & a little charm & cheek.
Ugh.
There is nothing worse than just wanting to simply talk to someone, but feel like you’re the biggest annoying pest going.
Oh wait. That person being far away is the worst thing.
She could be rainy days, minimum wage, a book that...
Turn ons?
Pretty smile & nice teeth.
Pretty eyes.
Good legs.
Wicked sense of humour. A little banter goes a long way.
Oh & glasses. Love a bit of a nerd, me.
Yum.
I'm not going to lie.
I want someone to come look after me tonight.
I don’t do well when I’m tired & feeling ill.
Isn't taking your underwear off the best feeling...
Booked up to get tattooed.
Finally getting my chest pieced sorted, I am SO excited.
I went with a white gradient inside the lettering, plus there’s a little touching up to be done.
Plus it’s only £30 (mates rates baby) so I am a very happy boy.
This means I can buy the leather jacket I’ve been pining after, yes.
The main thing I'd change.
Is that I just want to simply stand out in a crowd. I don’t want to be plain.
